I put off writing this blog until Thursday morning. Linda is on her way home now, and the fog will leave soon for a perfect day. Wednesday was the first day when I felt the changes starting. We did not have any more things to do at the hummingbird house. I could feel the hole in my life on Wednesday; before, it was just pain. That is not to say there were no tears, but the waves of loss have receded some.
Returning to Wednesday, I had trouble sleeping–I woke at 4:30ish and couldn’t sleep for a few hours and then slipped back into a deep sleep. I started at about 8:30. Linda was working East Coast Time, so she had made coffee. She reminded me that I could make cinnamon rolls. I finished a cup of coffee, jumped into the shower, and dressed. Next, I drove to Safeway and got some milk, eggs, and flowers. I returned and began the multiple-hour project to make the best puffy rolls. The main trick is to cook some flour in milk and add it to the dough to make a soft bread and to use sharp cinnamon from Vietnam. My yeast is dated, and it rose slowly. I will get a replacement for it soon.
We placed four rolls in a plastic bag (if only I had done that with the ones at the house–ants raided them) and got in Air Volvo. Next, went into Aloha in Air Volvo and soon arrived at the strip mall with The 649 and my usual Mexican place, Tapatio: Mexican Restaurant. We had too much food and a beer for lunch.
Next, we headed to Tigard. Today’s trip to the hummingbird house was social–there was nothing for us to get or see there, and we did not visit what was once Susie’s room. Jennifer and Louis (who live in the family at the house and nursing aides) were thrilled to see us, and we shared flowers and cinnamon rolls. We chatted as friends and folks who miss Susie. Jennifer asked after Leta (Susie’s mother), as she was missing her too. Linda and I spent about half an hour talking with our friends at hummingbird house. I will return on Saturday to see Vida, one of the resident’s spouses I have befriended, and Anassa, the weekend nursing aide.
After that, I stopped by the recently renamed Guardian Games gaming store. Linda followed along. The board game Lost Ruins of Arnak had a new add-on that looked great–I bought that ($29), and a new Oz role-playing game (RPG) book for Dungeons and Dragons 5E (5E) was recently published (under $40, so I got that too). I read Oz after Air Volvo got us back to the Volvo Cave. While it is a fantastic book that translates all of the Oz books into an RPG, it contains no true 5E-styled adventures, just random quests from supplied tables. This makes it more of a curiosity than something usable. I would have to use it to write a plan and formal adventure. If you contrast this to the Lord of the Rings (LOTR) 5E books, they have a huge adventure where you can play hobbits in the shire doing tasks for Bilbo in the times before the War of the Ring. So, I will follow up in six months and see if there is anything out there in the future. A little Oz could be fun, but I don’t want to write it. A few years ago, I reworked a LOTR adventure and played it–I thought it an excellent experience, but the players found LOTR a bit dark (it is).
I grew tired, and my thinking got mixed up. I am feeling disassociated: I still feel like I am in a sad dream. I napped. Charlotte J brought over a meal for us, a church tradition. We had some meatloaf, potato slices in a cheese sauce, and green beans. A pie in the frig was cooling, too. Linda packed and went to bed early. I did the laundry and dishes, then went into the garage and organized some of the furniture therein. Matt V is coming over on Thursday to help re-organize the office. I purchased some used furniture just before the pandemic and have waited through all these events to get used.
I will now think about my favorite construction guy to fix and change some stuff for the house. That will follow as I move forward with all the changes now. I never could plan my life after Susie’s passing.
I watched some old Doctor Who shows as I did the laundry and cleaned up. I went to bed and started a new book, returning to my Kindle and reading the newly released
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