I rose at 7ish, and Jeff was scheduled to appear around ten to work on repairs and updates to the house. I found the kitchen; it had not moved, and I was happy to see the dishes done. I made coffee by washing out my French press and loading it with locally roasted and ground coffee. My nose was full, and my ears were full too. Yes, pollen has started, and my allergies are in full bloom (pun generated by Grammarly–I suspect the AI is unaware of it, making it doubly funny to me). My eyes are stinging, which is the giveaway that it is pollen time.
I rushed through the blog but still managed more than 1,000 words. Sorry that the blog is mostly about living day-to-day, but the next trip, California by EV from Oregon, starts in two Sundays. Yay! Today, Jeff (I have his business card if anyone local in Oregon needs someone to do some work) will finish the lighting outside, paint the door Twinberry (here if you want to see it), and do a few other small clean-up items. Jeff will be back next week to paint the back of the door white and finish repairing the main bathroom floor. He will bring his power washer and clean the deck and cement of moss and algae. He will cut the deck (he built it) to give the mountain ash more room. He was amazed at how much the tree had grown. We talked about replacing the cement driveway and walkways as they are starting to break up (1978 was a long time ago), but the cost will be a trip to Paris, and thus, we will wait. There are a few large items I am ignoring: replacing the flooring in the fireside room and kitchen, updating the kitchen, replacing the cement, taking down the large trees, and redoing the sewer and water connection to the house before they break (like I said, 1978 was a long time ago).
On the subject of money, I was dressed and so on just after Jeff arrived and then headed out to US Bank to talk money. Nick and Sam from US Bank had an appointment with me. I brought all my paperwork with me, including Net Worth Statements, copies of statements from all my investments, Susie’s death certificate, and our marriage license. I explained my finances, and Nick and Sam complimented my organization and clarity.
They offered to handle the investments and arrange a risk-appropriate model for me, including socially responsible investing. They could handle the movement of all the funds and later help me roll over some IRA to Roth to enable more liquid access. In general terms, we also discussed my wish to donate from the pre-tax amounts instead of the usual taxed withdrawal, and they were familiar with the process and outlined how this could be done. This would remove more funds but give me the ability to make tax-efficient gifts. I will need to set up new beneficiaries for my accounts at US Bank to align with my previous decisions, but these can wait.
None of this is free, as you, dear reader, can imagine, but I wanted to leave Nike’s management, and US Bank local folks appealed to my support for your neighbor’s belief instead of some phone tree. It is one of many options. Sam called Fidelity, and we arranged the movement of funds. The 401k must be moved by check. Susie’s old IRA and PAX funds can be combined and moved using simpler processes. It was about two hours of work to arrange everything. I returned with less paper and will take the check to USB when it arrives to begin my next financial adventure.
Sam did inform me that US Bank investments do not connect well to Quicken, but I was already just tracking the balance at Fidelity by manual adjustment at the month’s end; it will be the same work for me. I am not interested in tracking the details; otherwise, I would have done it in eTrade and not used an investment team.
Air VW the Gray had me home soon. Jeff had the lighting done and was painting the door. I stayed at home as the door had to be open to let the paint dry. For lunch, I reheated the chicken, couscous, and North African-style couscous sauce. While eating, I watched more ShipHappens and other YouTube videos.
Jeff returned and finished up, and I headed to Portland in Air VW the Gray. The school buses were on the road midafternoon, and traffic was mixed up. Nav took me off Highway 26, and I crossed the hills into Portland. It was a sunny, warm day and an incredible drive with many twists and turns. The view was excellent (when I could glance over; hands on the wheel and eyes mostly forward–there is no shoulder, passing lanes, or room for mistakes on these streets)! The EV climbed up 500 feet and then back down to Portland, and the EV then re-climbed 500 feet again to OHSU, a local hospital complex, on a different hill overlooking Portland.
Parking is always a question, but I parked in the physician parking lot because I know they don’t ticket it, and there is always a space free. Security last time sent me there when there was no parking in the usual places. I walked by Shriner’s Children’s Hospital and George’s Park. I remember George driving Susie and me through Columbia Gorge and buying us lunch when we were new to the area in the 1990s. I still look over to the place he used to sit at church and think of him.
His story is still available on the Internet: George. I thought of him as I talked to the bankers in the morning. I will try to give some of it away, remembering how George Ruhberg gave.
I reached the confusing hospital entrance starting on the 9th floor and elevator B and soon found imaging. I was an hour early, and they were behind. The person who checked me in offered me a free pass on the tram, and off I went back through the lobby to the nearby tram. Part of OHSU is by the river down in Portland city in the previous brown fields of ship construction (poisoned with lead and other harmful items) now covered in buildings and new soil for some plantings (it is impossible to undo the damage without exposing the poisons).
The ride is scary to me but fun and relatively short. I had a round-trip pass courtesy of OHSU. The mountains were visible, with Mount Hood floating in the sky, Adams (I always confuse it with Rainier) peeking over some hills, and the broken cone of Mount St. Helens clear. Here, you see the fractured mountain, not the open crater, as that points North.
I returned to OHSU, took the maze in the hospital, and found imaging. My wait was short, and soon I was being poked for a contrast feed for the CT scan. Instead of undressing, I just unloaded some metal items on a chair, lowered my pants, and lay down. A warm blanket was supplied, and soon I was popped in and out of the machine. The results are not yet published. This is my annual check that there is no cancer spreading from the colon cancer. Chemo and surgery should be enough. My odds are reasonable: 4 to 1 that I will be done with colon cancer.
Walking by the park again, I found Air VW the Gray and took it back a more regular way down High 5 to 217. Instead, I stopped at the hummingbird house. Jennifer was out, but I got a bill for “The Estate of Susan Wild,” and I vaguely remember agreeing to pay for some extra help for Susie at the end of her life. I will write a check. It was just $44.57 a day when she was in hospice care for that last week.
Between the bill and providing the Death certificate, a sadness came over me. Deborah noticed when I spoke to her after dinner. I went to Buster’s BBQ off of 99 for dinner. It was BBQ, but not that great, but not terrible. They need to work on their sides, and I would have preferred cornbread to garlic toast. But still OK. Others like it, and it is kid-friendly.
When I returned home, I did not know that I was sad. I felt like something was missing, and I did not understand. I was looking for Susie; grief can ambush you. I had been tired these last few days, but that was grief and depression. For me, Grief, not Death, rides a pale horse as all the colors leave the world for me.
But, I found my way as you must. I thought of a new SciFI story and began to see the colors in the world again. I fell asleep thinking of myself as a wizard in my tower practicing my craft in some fantasy landscape. I dreamed of magic, though none of it I can recall.
Today, while I write this on Saturday morning, I recall yesterday’s grief and embrace it. It is a friend, not an enemy. I checked, and 2600 has not accepted my story (or rejected it), but it took months last time. My Howard stories are out there (not selling, but I don’t care). Look here for my stories (paying zero is good). Friday was a good day, and the colors were bright.
Thanks for reading.
The house has new lights and paint, and the screen door has been removed. The red is too bright in the photo. Digital photos can only produce the colors they see (it dropped the shades of brown in the door), something folks forget. Color old-school film will get it right.
Again, the blog is about my day-to-day experiences. I am OK.
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