Author: alohawild

The forecast was wrong, but usually, predicting overcast conditions in Oregon in April is riskless. This year’s rains are reported to be 105% of expected amounts. A little sun is OK. It was like a day in Northern California, cool but sunny.

I rose after 7 and found my pot of joy waiting for me. I assembled the coffee the night before and set the new coffee machine to summon the elixir of liberal bitterness. Fair Trade coffee ensures my cup helps and does not hurt the world. The dark and bitter taste reminds me of how much more needs to be done, but Hope is in the cup, and I know that eventually, the world will remember Justince with Compassion and the Love of Community. I hope that each sip gets us close.

I did the usual things: reading the news (doom scrolling for us liberals) and updating Quicken. I looked at my investments, and with the wild ups and downs from Trump proclaiming and then reversing tariffs, plus his threats to assume control of the Federal Reserve and then reversing that, too, I was surprised to be so far ahead. I had sold my 401K to cash to move my holdings to an IRA. This happened just before the chaos, meaning I sold out high and bought back in low, though I am still heavy in cash. The stock that I hold (i.e., not in the IRA) has tanked 8%, but I feel lucky it was only that bad.

I wrote the blog, texted, and talked to Deborah. It is wonderful to wake up to a text from her and, often, a call. Later, on Friday, I wished Deborah a good night as her day had ended first. She resides in the Eastern Time Zone.

The blog was not finished until the afternoon, but I had no plans for Friday. Mom Wild surprised me with a call, and I texted my sister with her request. While I try to help, distance makes things complex. I started the laundry. Friday and Monday are my usual laundry days, the once work-from-home days when we first returned to work from the lockdown at the shoe company. I stripped the bed, put out the other sheets, and later put them on just before getting in bed. Lunch was me finishing the reheated pasta and meatballs I made a few days ago.

I watched ShipHappens, Battleship New Jersey, and Drachinifel on YouTube. Drachinifel had translated a document describing Henry VIII’s navy and created tables of the main ships’ armament, ammo, and stores. I expect a new book soon.

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I then decided I wanted to try out the Age of Steam board game–an 18xx train-style board game, packed it in the Air VW the Gray, and headed to Wildwood. JR was there, and we chatted for a while. Then, I grabbed a beer and a table and spent the next two hours playing two partial games for three players. I have played a game like this at Richard’s, but the map was different, and there were no goals that were not in this 18xx train game. This is officially, if you are into 18xx games, 1875 Age of Steam, Deluxe. I misplayed and underpaid the players and knocked one of my test players out of the second round. Wrong! I then overpaid in the next play, but that at least let me try out many of the game’s features. Unlike other 18xx games that can go on all day, this one ends in under two hours. Also, the bank and the players running out of money are not a game-ending trigger. I liked this game as it was about building and running your railroad, and that is all you score for (and stock offerings reduce your score).

With the game set in my head, I paid my bill for two beers and headed back home in the EV. The sun was setting, and I watched in the backyard in its light for a while. The hummingbirds were in and out of the pine trees and redwoods. Bugs would whirl in the short-lived flight of early spring, with many living for only days. Larger bugs would perform figure eight flights, raising and falling more than ten feet. Bees were all over the few flowers on the apple tree, rhododendron, and mountain ash. A few small white moths or butterflies flew here and there. No larger predators-like insects or butterflies, were yet out. The bugs I witnessed are harbingers of summer and often fall to frosts or rains.

I took out the pork roast from the frig and despite the two hour cooking time, started roasting it. I also boiled potatoes and made a salad. I cleaned and did laundry while it cooked. I also connected with Deborah on the phone before she slept and ended her day together. Dinner was more assembly and following a process than chef work. I made four servings of pork and admit I had two. It was delicious.

Lettuce was frozen in frig. I managed to salvage enough for a salad. I had lots of olives, so I added them.

Aside: Getting frozen items on the frig is a bad sign; I remember Dad telling me that. This is an older frig and when they start to freeze in the frig part it means the cooling stuff is failing and it is over rev-ing to get the freezer cold. I tried to turn things down a bit, but I suspect it is doomed–but the frig is more than twenty years old and was rebuilt once under warenty–I got my value out of it. I will take measurements for the space (it is smallish) and look for a replacement. I will, based on Deborah’s suggestion, also clean it up.

I binge-watched the first three episodes of Andor, which is now in season 2. I am not sure if I think it’s better than season 1, but it is busy tying together some leftovers from season 1. It is dark and harsh. There was some irony and even a funny moment. Though I did not like it as much, I could not stop watching. So, I recommend it with reservations that I cannot specify.

After that, I did the dishes for dinner and headed to bed. Sleep was hard to find as I was warm (the heat and AC are off), and then I woke twice for proof of hydration and one bad dream. I dreamed I was choking to wake to an asthma attack. I got it under control with my inhaler. My throat is sore today. Yes, Spring is full of pollen, and I opened the windows earlier. Hmmm.

Thanks for reading!

I still feel that I need to do something every day and make the day mean something. A friend asked me, with concern, “Can’t you take a day off or read a book?” Maybe on a beach in some distant land, but I feel like every day filled with things to do and learn is a gift. Perhaps I will slow down and relax someday (maybe reading on a distant beach or sitting in a chair, sipping a drink on the porch in New Orleans), but now I think there is much to do. Thank you for asking!

My father, Bob, rose every morning to see the sunrise. “There are only so many left,” he told me. All these new things and some familiar ones make my day feel fulfilled. Someday, they will stop, and someday I will be slowed by age and proud to just watch a show, eat something, and remember the days when I wrote this blog. Thank you for reading!

On other challenges, Grammarly continues to rewrite my writing with correct but differently meaning sentences that, while grammatically correct, are inconsistent with my sentence’s original thought and words. I have to rewrite more than before; it is too easy to update by clicking the new incorrect version. Yikes! It is at the cutting edge of artificial intelligence (AI) and reassures me that we are much further from the singularity than some writers think.

Thursday started with me rising after 7. It was a warm, sunny day, and I had rolled over a few times to resist the bright sun trying to reach my vampire moment. I welcomed the morning, shaking off undead thoughts of pulling up the covers and hiding from the sun. The coffee was waiting for me, liberal fair-traded, and soon I had a cup, breakfast of toast with peanut butter and banana, and walked to the office to start my electronic AI-enhanced life. Grammarly revised my words to be more correct (and often less clear). My transactions were pattern-matched by an AI model I helped to create in Quicken (and likely my work was lifted and shared internally to make their product better), my searches all AI (now SwissCow and not Google, thank you), and Alexa answering my questions about the weather. Yes, an AI-filled morning. I did have to override Quicken twice, Alexa was confused a few times, and let’s not even talk about Grammarly. I think we are still safe.

Aside: I imagine a Terminator loaded with this technology, and our hero, Howard, using a double negative to defeat the AI running the SciFi death machine. Or maybe a few quotes from Monty Python. “Now that is done, maybe a stop to get a taco in Portland,” would be his reaction to the pile of destroyed silver-colored tech.

Feeling more like myself and finding my groove, I wrote 1900 words, and I did not feel exhausted when I finally finished at nearly 11. I took breaks for food, walking in the grass in the warm sun, and other needs. It was a nice morning.

I quickly showered and all that and then boarded Air VW the Gray to travel across Beaverton to Cedar Hills McMenamins. I met Scott for lunch at 11:45, and we talked about investments, AI, travel, and a few other topics. This is our weekly meeting, and we enjoyed a burger (Scott’s non-meat and with a salad, and mine with meat, bacon, blue cheese, and fried). Scott has found some interesting Europe-based mining companies he bought at the Trump-dip with a good dividend. I noticed my US Bank Wealth Management group investing me in load funds, but using institutional versions that are not available to the individual investor, are low-expense, no-load, and high-yield. Interesting.

After that, I took the EV home and napped for a bit. My usual response to beer and lunch.

I remembered to put out the trash and other containers. I don’t know if this is recycling or lawn waste week, but I put it all out. I carried the collected cardboard, cans, and bags to the recycling, uncluttering the house. I also fold and put away the laundry. The house looks more ordered now. We all know it is an illusion; American homes junk-a-fy without effort.

Yesterday, I made milk bread, white bread with milk powder, using the bread machine with some milk powder. It is a softer loaf, and the powder resists bread mold. I made toast from it. I tossed the wheat bread as it was getting old. I had that for breakfast today.

I discovered rust on the roses, and it was worse now. Looking on the web, I then took my cutters and alcohol and cut away the rust-poisoned canes, about half of the rose bush’s growth for the Spring. I cleaned the cutters often and between plants and washed my hands. The rust-poisoned canes were put in the trash. Next, I popped over to Ace and looked for sprays.

Some had warnings that would not have me use them as paint, let alone as rose sprays! Do not use near food, pets, children, or areas in use. Do not use on seed plants. Do not use unless appropriately dressed. Yikes! I then saw neem oil and went for that. It is not a super deadly chemical, not likely to cause the next zombie invasion or an Audrey 2, and it works by drowning the rust. Spray it on in a well-shaken bottle once a week. There! Done! Fits my usual lawn care thoughts, which is not to use harsh items in care for my lawn (dig out a weed, don’t spray it).

With the roses less rusty and missing some buds, sadly, I think that might help. I will monitor, spray, and clip as needed. It’s the first time I have faced rust that I remember. It is on two older-style roses (the old school tea rose that came with the house and is likely older than me, and the bourbon rose) with no sign elsewhere.

With the roses done, I return to a board game from GameFound that I have ignored, Age of Steam, Deluxe Edition. I reread the rules, and have played a game like this at Richard’s that I think is a version of the same system, 18xx, but revised closer to a Euro and worker placement. Many operations loved in a more train/market 18xx are abstracted now. I could play it on a Wednesday (many 18xx games have unlimited duration).

I punch it and discover that the replacement tracks are transparent, but all 114 are covered with a transparent film. I start to remove it. I will do this over time, as this is a tedious task and takes time for each piece.

Next, I meet Dondrea and Z for dinner at Nonna Emilia Ristorante Italiano, an old-school American-Italian place with even the plastic grapes stapled to the walls. I get a planter for my birthday from them that we get in Air VW the Gray with some effort.

Dinner was good. Dondrea and Z split a plate of clams and pasta. I had sausage with grilled onions and peppers and a side of spaghetti with meat sauce. It has been months since we have had dinner, and it feels good to just relax and let someone bring us food while we chat.

With the happiness of good company, food, and drinks, we went out separate ways. I returned home in the EV, and put the planter out. Looks good.

I spent the rest of the night reading more about the board game. I went to bed about 10:30, but some chocolate I had enjoyed made sleep hard to find. The house was 71F, and blankets were unwelcome. Eventually, sleep found me.

Thanks for reading!

 

 

I try not to swing from depression to elation. That feels more manic than alive. Instead, I had a good Wednesday and did many things. The depression comes when I don’t do anything. It felt more like a usual day for me.

I rose after 7 and soon found the kitchen; it had not moved. In the kitchen, technology had summoned a pot of caffeinated joy into existence for me, which I had assembled the night before. Technology then applied power to the various parts and brought coffee to life! The dark liquid is fair-exchanged and thus deliciously bitter and liberal, my favorite flavor. With Hope, also found in the morning elixir, I headed to my office to begin my writing.

Yes, dear reader, I did go back to that boilerplate, but I like coming up with new words for coffee.

I wrote the blog, updated the transactions in Quicken for all my live accounts (IRA balances require manual updates), and paid my accumulated monthly expenses (which always reminds me of Gomez in the Addams Family, “for the monthly expenses”). While my cash is lower than I planned, the extra expense for Air VW the Gray, including paying off the Volvo failed repairs, rental car until I bought the EV, and installing a charge station, comes to nearly $9,000. Sucks! I will not curtail my travel (Mickey is next and that mouse loves ‘cheddar’), but I will be careful not to increase monthly expenses and try to keep my spending down when not travelling.

With the bills paid, blog done, I walked through the backyard, and the frost did not seem to slow anything. The bees are all over the blooms on the apple tree and the mountain ash. There are small moths or butterflies (they flutter by too soon for me to identify them). The lawn service has the grass a dark green, cut, and it appears very happy. The roses have jumped into the sky already, but show rust this time. Never had that in years. How strange. I must treat them as the red bumps are now on two roses. The roses are thick with promises of flowers.

I shower, dress, get the mail, and talk to Deborah, who is happy to hear my last birthday present arrived. I have a Calamity Mug, something I have considered buying a few times. Excellent. Next, I board Air VW the Gray and head to the nearby MAX station, then into Portland. I was happy to get a newer car, but the seats were less comfortable than the older ones. Hmmmm.

I got to see a likely illegal cash deal in non-US currency, and one passenger was having an animated talk about the vibrations in the earth that he could feel; there was nobody in his audience. In other words, it was the usual trip to Portland. I smiled and read my Canadian murder/crime story on my Kindle. I wore a coat and a white hat, almost invisible with the gray hair and the book.

I got off at the Library station, stopped, and enjoyed the cool morning in the nearby park, Director Park. It was the last minutes of morning, and a gentleman was playing old classic rock loudly on speakers. I gave him a tip, which surprised him. The giant chess set was not out, but the fountain was shooting water here and there.

The park along Park Street (North Park Blocks) was full of folks who, by their carts and mixed clothing, were likely homeless. I saw a line near the still-not-remounted Teddy Roosevelt statue (just the block remains, and you have to imagine a metal president on a metal horse). The ‘Sandwich Ministry’ was running. A group of three people was supplying sandwiches, coffee, and a drink for anyone. I gave them a donation, which made them very happy.

Aside: Pastor Steve once told the story of a man who used to drive around and give sandwiches as a personal ministry–he just did this and did not think to tell anyone. It was something he just did. He passed unexpectedly, and one unknown man came to the funeral, and according to Steve, told the story of the late man giving him a sandwich. The family then took up the role of giving away sandwiches. I do not know if what I witnessed was the fruit of this story or another tale. I was happy to see it; everyone looked calm and happy. I believe the worst of being homeless is to be treated as if you do not exist. To be treated less than human and become unseen. Being seen, handed a sandwich, and getting some peace is a great gift.

I entered the Portland Art Museum, PAM, and was there to see the Monet lily pad painting that had been repaired and the varnish removed. It was reportedly still slightly faded. I learned you cannot undo all the darkness from a varnish without destroying the original paint from the informational video across from the Monet. PAM has only a few French Impressionist paintings; most were on the wall for this show (except an embarrassingly ugly and small Van Gogh of a cow in dark shades, here).

PAM, never a wealthy institution, focused on graphic arts over its 100 years and its collection of Japanese prints, M.C. Escher original works, including canceled engraving and woodblock masters, and other paper-based art, often from well-known artists (but obviously cheaper than painting, bronzes, and so on), is extensive. PAM curators assembled next to the French Impressionists, Japanese prints, and works that echoed the influence of the Japanese prints, including a sketch from Toulouse-Lautrec. Most of the Japanese prints are the same as the ones Monet is known to have owned.

The story is that the French Impressionists were heavily influenced by these new items that had just appeared with the American forced opening of Japan. The prints were suddenly available, and the French Impressionists bought and admired them. The show’s text suggests that Monet, Lautrec, and others incorporated the colors, lines, and positions of figures found in the Japanese prints into their works.

Although the curators did not include it in this display, PAM owns Hokusai’s famous Wave print. This show included many of his other works of Japanese print art from the same time. I thought it was a small but excellent show, and it is recommended.

The Wave needs to be presented in a darker light to protect it, and, according to the docent I spoke to, it would have distracted from the Monet. I saw an original on my last trip to Chicago, and it was in a dark corner of the museum. It is smaller, and the colors were darker than I expected.

One later Japanese print used a Western perspective, showing the reverse influence. I also saw a woodcut from 1894 of a Hokusai-like wave dumping an artist in his small boat with his easel. It suggested the French Impressionists were overwhelmed by these Japanese forms (Henri Gustave Jossot, La Vague). I laughed out loud and bought a postcard of the image later in the gift store. It is here.

I did view the 1960s art and outfits, but that did not interest me enough. While colorful and sort of interesting, I was still thinking about the mix of Japanese art and French Impressionists. The room of Portland-based rock posters was an interesting historical addition.

I stopped by the store and received blank looks when I asked if the prints of PAM’s one Monet lily pad painting for sale were made before or after the varnish removal. I wanted the new look. I got a card (I sent it to Mom Wild) and napkins, suspecting they are the previous look. I thought napkins were an odd way to celebrate Monet.

Next, I walked back through the park and tipped my hat to the folks still there. They commented on my white hat,  saying it was fetching. I opened the door to South Park Seafood bar, sat, and ordered some wine. I had their board of cold fish offerings. It all went well with wine and French Impressionists. It was a perfect sunny California day in Portland, Oregon. Not something we used to see a few years ago in April! I remember my roses blooming and melting away in the rain, not this year. Instead, I have new infections to deal with. Mostly, you cut this away and treat with care. You must ensure that you do not spread the fungus. Burning (!) is recommended for infected material.

The food was excellent, and I finished with a coffee and a separate shot of Amaretto. With the blues, reds, and yellows of Japanese and French art bouncing in my brain and the excellent food and drink bouncing in me, too, I found the train home and soon headed home. I was fine and soon was home, where a nap soon found me.

I keep forgetting to say that I have bagels from Susie’s Aunt Joyce from NYC from Zabar’s, and will need to acquire supplies (cream cheese and sliced cheese) to enjoy these for breakfast and dinner. I love a toasted tuna melt, though I often set it on fire when the cheese ignites in the broiler. It’s still good and easily and undestructively extinguished when removed from the broiler. It’s best to have a window open, though.

Rising, I found the kitchen again (it still has not moved), and I reheated the pasta and meatballs from yesterday for dinner. I talked to Deborah, and we locked in more of our trip to Anaheim in June. We also discovered that the Nixon Presidential Library is in the LA area. I learned that if you show a public transit card, you get a $2 discount at the tar pit museum, and I looked at taking trains and buses to get there. It looks like fun.

I also talked to Dondrea about working out dinner with her and Z on Thursday. We changed the location to Nonna Emilia Ristorante Italiano after I saw the amazingly LA-like prices at La Provence for dinner. I am going to have to learn to make croissants! Gaming was off for the night–play practice was extended for Z.

I also received new stamps for my collection, which I still maintain. With the passing of the Great Generation, also the greatest stamp collectors, their collections are being dumped online, mostly broken up, and I get a chance at some great discounts. I got a Confederate Stamp used (they are near valueless when unused, and we see fake cancels to increase values), a proof of an impossible to get stamp (there is only one known copy) that was in FDR’s album (!), and invert (my first) that I got at a significant (insane) discount. Easter apparently was not a good time to hold an auction, a buyer’s feast. I placed these in my albums (I have a Revenue album for the very specialized tax stamps) and my usual one with parts of my old Harris Album for Confederates (my Scott’s does not cover that).

I thought about a movie, but instead, I headed to Salt and Straw and had ice cream, mint with chocolate flakes (vegan positive), and then I walked the area and enjoyed the sunset. I then returned home in the EV.

With all this happiness, I was feeling better and more like myself. Meaning, sleep was hard to find. I finally slept around midnight. I woke at 3:15 to an alarm and sent a good morning message to Deborah, who was starting her day then. I fell back to sleep and missed her reply.

Thanks, dear reader, for putting up with 1900 words.

For me, some of the after-travel impacts take a few days to hit. On Tuesday, I was still dragging and then all the colors ran out of the day, but so slowly I did not first notice that I was sad and, well, depressed. I noticed that I wanted to do nothing and ignore calls, texts, and emails, not like me at all.  I recognized that I was in a dark place and decided to pull out of this tailspin. Not by self-medicating with alcohol, painkillers (though a sore arm did have me take some, but light stuff), or other self-destructive behaviors. Instead, I read about Canadian crime, A Better Man: A Chief Inspector Gamache Novel (A Chief Inspector Gamache Mystery Book 15), on my Kindle and made a pork chop with reheated mashed potatoes and some just passable asparagus steamed. Protein, carbs, and some green, perfect!

The decision to get better, taking a familiar and happy task—cooking and then eating some delicious food, brought the colors back into the world. It was difficult for me to do, as the depression pressured me to do nothing but sit in my house, but I got a ticket to a movie I wanted to see and just went at 9ish. Oddly, dear readers, it was you that got me to act; I did not want to write today that I just sat there sad and unable to act. I acted. I was happy at the theater, and all the colors in the movie bright lights, flowed back into the world. I am good.

I am not asking for help, but to record my experiences and to let others who fight depression and loneliness know they are not alone. It ain’t easy, and it sneaks up on you. I believe my fight is against the doom-scrolling world, grief, and finding purpose. I did not face depression when working; I was too busy, so this is another benefit of retirement: I can find myself at loose ends and feel guilty about it, and then get sad. I also am not getting enough exercise. Back to walking!

Returning to the narrative, I rose early to start the blog and traveled to Portland to play Mansions of Madness 2nd Edition, a horror-based semi-cooperative game. It was a sunny, cold morning, feeling more California than Oregon (no rain). Traffic was the usual heavy, everyone-to-work Tuesday (Monday and Friday still are lighter, even with most folks back to the office for the week). A small car had rear-ended a semi truck just before I reached that part of Highway 405, and I had a sudden lane change to avoid that. Next, a three-foot shrubbery was lost on the road on the bridge and reminded me of Monty Python as I avoided it. I was only a few minutes late, and James (who came from Washington State) appeared after me.

We played another scenario, and Richard’s ‘I must win’ took over a few times, but mostly we worked together. Both James and my characters went insane, but I managed to meet my extra game requirement and still won when we finally took down the final monster in a hail of dangerous spells and gunfire. My character was insane, but the additional requirement was met, so I was included in the win. James was not as lucky. Still, it was a fun scenario.

It is a new scenario; I thought it was well put together. We are almost out of scenarios and may start next Tuesday with the Tainted Grail hero-based board game. I have read mixed reviews of the game. I am willing to try it.

Aside: I learned that a replacement app can be used to create your own content for the Mansions of Madness 2nd Edition. I am interested in looking at it. Valkyrie is the software, and it may go that way. You will find it here.

I drove home without issue and found myself exhausted. Still, I made baked meatballs I purchased from Safeway yesterday, heated some pasta sauce from a jar I bought at the Olive Pit in California, and cooked pasta in boiling salty water for lunch. I enjoyed my lunch, but I was tired and soon rested. I nodded off for only a few minutes. I had not realized I was wearing a heavy sweater, while it was 70°F in the house.

It was a struggle to finish the blog. I was so tired, and every word seemed an effort to type. It was difficult to remember the day. I just wanted to rest. I fought through it and produced a decent blog.

I did take a trip to the local gaming store in Aloha, Guardian Games Aloha, and looked for Chicago—City of Big Shoulders, but they did not have it. They have Unconscious Minds, and that got my attention, but it was not a Kickstarter version (but for $60 instead of $230). Instead, I bought the newest role-playing game book from Chaosium, Gaslight Cthulhu Investigators Guide. It comes with a folded map of London from the 1890s. I have run one adventure in this setting, reworked it from the original material, and thought it was good (Sherlock Holmes setting, adding steampunk technology). I used the Savage Worlds base system with rules for spies and Lovecraftian creatures/magic.

As I said, depression seemed to flood me, and I could do nothing for a few hours. But, I remembered I had a defrosted pork chop in the frig, and rose to cook. The action of cooking and eating, as I said, brought me back.

I did the dishes, put away the laundry I finished (I left some towels for Tuesday), and was soon back to my usual busy self. I read the last part of my current book, and was right about the murderer. I completed that just as I needed to head to the Movies. This was a late, 9:20, and last-minute thing, so I did not invite anyone. The Amateur was an excellent adventure, revenge, and spy movie, and it reminded me of The Day of the Jackal, The Odessa File, and some of George Smiley‘s stories (the books), but it has been updated to now and set in the US CIA. One character joked that the main character wanted James Bond equipment, and later, you learn that the guy is a nerd and is better at tech than gunplay. It is like Q from James Bond on a real mission. The main character is not likeable, but you get on his side as you see that he is underestimated repeatedly, as he is a nerd. This appealed to me.

Now tired, after 11, I head to bed. I soon fell asleep.

Deborah texted and called me all day, each time the colors appeared back in the world. After so many weeks together with only a few days’ break, it is hard to go 50 days to the next adventure. But we are planning our Micky Mouse adventure (the mouse wants lots of ‘cheese’ and makes staying at the Grand Hyatt look inexpensive) and staying connected.

Thanks for reading.

I rose with my alarm at 7ish, and sunrise woke me earlier, but I managed to sleep longer. I walked out to the kitchen and found a liberal pot of coffee joy. I poured a cup and made some toast by cutting off a bit of the wheat flour loaf I made a few days ago in the bread machine (I stopped buying bread and instead I make it). I use King Arthur Flour Company flour, milk powder, yeast, and grain mix in the bread machine. I purchase it online and pay shipping at a flat rate of $15; their online prices are lower than in the grocery store. The bread machine is the cheap Amazon version (about $70). While flour is not cheap, I think it must be more affordable to make your own, but adding in the machine’s price may still be more expensive than buying. I think I will break even if I make bread every week or two for a year (I have made about ten loaves, so that is likely $9 each using simple math and cost for ingredients).

Economics and cost of living have moved up in my thinking (as they continue to increase) as I watch the debacle caused by the tariffs. The demand that interest rates be lowered has also surprised me, as the same folks who said the rates are too low are now saying they are too high. Being retired and thus having no paycheck and no Social Security until next year, I must live on my investments, dividends, and interest this year, plus savings I accumulated these last few years. I do not think Trump-style shocks to the Markets or economy will benefit me. The red-hat folks bounce from one extreme (higher rates) to another (lower rates), and cheering on dismantling fifty years of free-trade institutions (tariffs) will produce good returns, which is unlikely, I think. But I accept that Trump won and that he gets another chance; I will watch, try not to wince, and grab some more popcorn.

To be clear, I prefer policies based on income growth for mid-to-low-income families and stabilization of basic costs (gas, food, homes, rent, utilities, and so on). I believe free trade lowers prices and improves goods, services, and fiscal instruments. From what I can see, Wall Street and many corporate folks don’t like it as it pressures them to produce better and cheaper products.

But I digress. The blog is about what I am feeling and experiencing; these thoughts are on my mind more. Returning to the story…

I wrote the blog, spoke, and texted Deborah to wish each other a happy Monday, and did my usual morning things. The liberal (i.e., fair-traded) coffee fueled my morning. The blog was done in the late morning. I dressed and headed into Safeway.

The soaking of beans for today’s chili was missing from yesterday’s blog. I bought a few kits from the Women’s Bean Project, and I planned to make chili today for lunch. I have mentioned this group before; during the pandemic, they were the only folks I could get dried beans from, and I like their products as they help people and are also good. It’s a bit more money, but the handwritten note on the box stating who packed it tells you that you helped someone by using these beans and seasonings. Today, I was using the Firehouse No. 10 Chili package. I soaked the beans overnight.

I followed directions (mostly, but used 1/2 the amount of onion), boiled the beans, and then simmered. I shopped at Safeway and got the items I needed to finish the chili (now buying the cheaper items–see above). The meat manager all but handed me a ham, $6, and was all but putting them in people’s carts. I called Corwin, and he later stopped by and got two cheap ones. These are the plain, not spiral-sliced, hams. I somehow got my bill to just under $90 and two bags. I self-checked out and flagged a security check.

I had dropped a set of apple sauce single servings and had to put the singles in my bag after scanning the barcode on the broken paper holder. The self-checkout then played a movie of me playing stuff directly in my bag. Yes, I was caught by AI! The store staff had to watch the replay of the possible crime and approve each moment. The staff was annoyed as they were busy talking about family matters (not watching me) and had to stop and worship the AI with a wave of their passcard.

It was fascinating to me. The video had a green box over the bag I loaded the items into. I suspect that had I pocketed an item, it would have directed it to my person. Exciting. Having been approved, I paid and was allowed to take my items to the EV. I will eat the apple sauce slowly, now enjoying every AI-tested bit.

Back at the house, I unloaded my approved items and chopped and assembled the chili. I used the jars of instant stock (I saw it being used in New Orleans) and hot water instead of buying what is mostly water in those boxes. The taste was the same (and was much cheaper–see above). It was not too spicy and had a nice flavor. I had three bowls.

I sent a note to Corwin and he was over after work and had a large bowl and raided some of my frig pickles. I learned I was right that he had finished the asparagus pickles. We chatted for a while.

I headed to Wildwood and talked to JR for a while. He is often there on Mondays. His son was married there on Sunday in a big party. We had a few beers. They have a pay-it-forward board where folks can buy a beer for someone. There was a colon cancer survivor line for $25 on the board, and I used $15 for my drinks (leaving $10 for someone else to use). We talked about travel, politics (we don’t agree on much), and beer; an excellent mix.

I also read more of Pastor Ken’s book, now through chapter 3. I sent a few comments.

Deborah spoke to me before she went to sleep. It is always good to open and close our days together.

I had a few beers, smaller ones, and read, and then headed home.

I was still tired from Sunday’s pancake breakfast. Between things, I also did the laundry on Monday. I read for a while and was soon asleep again, around 10:30.

Thanks for reading!