I always feel guilty when I have a quiet day, little is done on my projects, or the house is not cleaned. Thursday was one of these non-productive days. Doom scrolling, what we liberals call reading the news, brought forth more illogical changes to the US government by the Trump folks (it is vague if this is the administration, 2025 Project, or an extra government process), including defunding science, health programs, and military changes. The specific ‘crime’ of the National Security Agency chief was his appointment by Biden. No reason was given in the press other than a vague charge of disloyalty to President Trump. The political danse macabe continues.
The news on the financial front is like a view of Niagara Falls—majestic, loud, and hard not to watch. Yes, there is a lot of loud falling. However, the view is different for some of us with significant retirements in the market (I am mostly in cash). It is from the barrel headed to the falls. It is a fantastic view from the barrel and likely an unrepeatable experience, and something we would prefer not to do. F**k.
I assembled the coffee the night before and let the new Coffee Machine perform an automated operation beginning at 7. Thus, when I rose, more like a vampire than my usual popping out of the sheets, I found the kitchen (it seemed to be in the same location, but seemed further away) and enjoyed the Fair Trade already prepared coffee. I took the croissant, sliced it, and plated it with a banana. Coffee in my cup, liberal, I was ready to face the world.
As usual, I wrote the blog and listened to Kink.fm on my computer. This has been my go-to radio station since I moved to Oregon. The programming has changed often, but I still like their mix. I do not enjoy their obviously paid repeated playing of certain songs. The endlessly played song, Vampire, that I actually liked is no longer played. They did it for months, often playing it twice an hour, and now it is gone from their playlist. I still listen and like most of what they play. I like to hear the new stuff mixed with older items such as Teddy Swims played against Dave Mathews Band.
I wrote for the morning, published the blog, showered, shaved, etc. I also read more of the 1936 Battle of Jutland book authored by an American naval officer. The author spent the first chapters setting the stage of WWI and even quoted (again without footnotes!) some other books or referred to some (again without notes). If this book had been carefully footnoted, I suspect it would be read and remembered as a great work. As it is, I am not sure I will finish it. Better books are out there on Jutland 1916 (many new and most extensively footnoted with some even pointing out mistakes in the original sources). Still, the writing is engaging, and his comments are interesting. So maybe I will finish it.
I met Scott for lunch at Cedar Hills McMenamins for a few beers and a burger. Yesterday, I was there and had the no-meat Mystic Burger, but this time, I went with the Captain Neon Burger (meat burger, blue cheese, bacon). Scott and I talked about our travels, both planned and executed. We are both watching the market (see comment above about being in a barrel) and, in Scott’s words, getting more popcorn as we wait for what next crazy will come from Trump and Company (or is it ‘Elon and Company & Trump’).
After a few beers and little sleep the night before, I must admit I slept. I had called into a US Bank call on the markets and nodded off as the platitudes and calming voices worked on me. Not only did I not sell anything, but I was sleeping! Perfect. I had it on mute, so my snoring was not broadcast. With my Wealth Management account for my 401K, I find I have more access to calls on investments. I called my investment manager and told him I was fine, had nothing to say but ‘good luck’, and would let them do their job.
I binge-watched the last four episodes of the Disney+ first season of the Star Wars show Andor while drinking some reheated coffee to wake up. I reheated the pasta and chicken I had made a few days before, but I was not that hungry, and most went to the trash.
Deborah called at the end of her night, and we talked awhile. We planned some events for my trip, including a cooking class for my birthday on Friday (next week) and watching an opera on Sunday (next weekend). Deborah rang off as she was sleepy (she still works and raises early). Our drug of choice when meeting is coffee. One of us will need it with me in Pacific time and Deborah in Eastern time (three hours difference).
I finished my binge-watching and look forward to the next season’s release (it’s after Easter). I read more Jutland. I got through another chapter. I put the dishes away and could write my story in the house, clean, or do something.
I decided that more beer, yes, dear reader, more beer, was a good idea and headed to Wildwood Taphouse. JR was there recently, back from a driving trip to Arizona. We were happy to see each other. We had a few beers and chatted. I had planned to write, but the energy at the bar was electric, and it was more fun to meet people and talk to JR. It was someone’s birthday, the taphouse is known to be pro-dog, and there was a mass of doggies, mostly well behaved. Beer, pets, treats for dogs, and birthday cake were distributed. I felt better.
While we chatted over the noise, JR’s eyes got damp several times. He lost his wife six months ago. I know, though each person’s experience of loss and grief is unique, what it is like after six months and you begin to realize this is your life now. It feels so unreal. It is not lonely or depressing; it is just unexpected, and there are so many little details to handle and decisions to make. It felt like a slow spin to me. My eyes get damp a few times a day and often when I don’t expect it. Frequently, my voice cracks unexpectedly sometimes as the emotions rise without warning. I know, as JR, that time will lessen occurrences, but I can say that the tears or moist eyes have yet to stop. I am not sure I want them to.
With closing time approaching and me changing to water, I said my goodbyes, and EV took me home. I soon was in bed and remembered I had only a few hours of sleep last night. I closed my book, and in a blink, I was asleep. I soon joined some party in my dreams and woke up happy on Friday. The dreams are forgotten, but it was a good rest. I could smell the coffee; I had assembled the coffee before I headed to bed.







